I want us to be comfortable.
The “I can talk to you about anything and not be judged” kind of comfortable.
The “I feel safe telling you things I want to do, places I want to go, food I want to try” kind of comfortable.
The “I can make mistakes like all human beings do and you’ll be there to remind me softly with a smile or maybe hug me and pat me on the head” kind of comfortable.

But at the same time, I want us to be not too comfortable.
Not too comfortable that we’d often prioritize others over each other.
Cause we both have this unhealthy tendency of being a people-pleaser…to some degree.
And let me tell you that I’m aware. I’m working on it. I want to prioritize myself & my happiness. Our happiness, if we ever get together. I hope you’d also be brave enough to do so.

Not too comfortable that we have become lazy to be our best selves and not doing the best for each other.
We were once not lazy.
We were once willing to put effort.
I hope we could always find a way back to how it was before.

Not too comfortable that we’d throw words as we wish without thinking of each other’s feelings.
In the name of “this is just who I am”.
Don’t you know that even if it’s hard - we surely do have the capability to be a better person?

Cause if that’s what comfortable is,
Then I don’t want comfortable.
Let’s be a little bit uncomfortable forever.